Disclaimer

Just realized that i had a pile of bills and administrative letters which i did not managed to clear before i went for my mount kk trip. Was reading the disclaimer fine print on my insurance renewal document when it crossed my mind about a disclaimer of another non-business/legal sort that i came across some time back.

Why do people issue disclaimer on things they do?
What if you are the receiving end of a disclaimer made?
What if a disclaimer was told to you only after an event/agreement/contract/ partnership had taken place?
What if the disclaimer was disclosed in third person to you only after an event had taken place?

I think there is nothing wrong with making disclaimer and most people who make disclaimers have no intention to harm, attack or take advantage of the other receiving end. Rather, i think it's more an act to protect oneself, to limit liability and obligation than any ill intention. Yet, it really doesn't feel good at all at the receiving end...especially for a disclaimer that is told in the aftermath of an agreement..and worst, in third person...But i have learned to brush it off... nobody can make you feel bad or small unless you allow them to. :)

Sigh.. I like to think that i've grown wiser over these few years but the truth perhaps, is that i have really grown older but still non the wiser. For deep down, i guess i'm still the the idealistic sort, even though there had been times i had fallen down due to my foolish beliefs. I still believe in things like integrity, honesty, true love, true friendship,  kindness, good intentions, compassion and sincerity...

Beautiful Moonlight Tonight

There's a beautiful full moon tonight. Couldn't help but to take a snapshot of the lovely moon on three occasions tonight. :)

The brightly lit moon overhanging the beautiful skyline at the esplanade.

While waiting for the traffic light to go green, i noticed it shinning brightly above. Ah.. it has been following me. :)

I saw it again when i reached home...just right above where a teenage couple was sitting at the bus stop.

孫燕姿 《當冬夜漸暖》

The radio was playing this song while driving to work this morning and it just touches me. It's like the singer was singing to me, it's like the singer was singing my song.




《當冬夜漸暖》

詞: 藤井樹，曲:饒善強

很多事情 不是誰說了就算
即使傷心 結果還是自己擔
多少次失望表示著多少次期盼
事實證明 幸福很難

我們之間 不是誰說了就算
拉扯的愛 徒增結局的難堪
一百次相愛只要有一次的絢爛
下一次 會更勇敢

當冬夜漸暖 當大海也不再那麼藍
當月色的純白變得陰暗
那只是代表快樂不再那麼簡單

當冬夜漸暖 當夏夜的樹上不再有蟬
當回憶老去的痕跡斑斑
那只是因為悲傷從來 都不會有答案

當冬夜漸暖 當青春也都煙消雲散
當美麗的故事都有遺憾
那只是習慣把愛當做喜歡
重要的是 我們如何愛過那一段

Happy

Happy is when your ex teammates ask you to come back to lead the team and they will fully support you in the role. :)

It feels good even when you are not at all keen. :)

平安就是幸福

My colleague announced to everyone during his hole-in-one dinner treat this evening of the amount i have donated to our company employee Japan Tsunami Relief fund (the company had donated an amount separately) which just started yesterday. It was the highest among the collection so far. I was a little paiseh when asked to say something. I had actually prepared the cheques (my mother and mine )since 2 weeks ago for Singapore Red Cross but had been kept busy i always ended up postponing to the next day. So when the initiative and request came, i conveniently passed my cheques which had been sitting in my handbag to our department secretary. 

So i was asked if i have a boyfriend or relative in Japan or if i had any reason for the donation amount. I said cos i don't have a million dollar (like the rich girl in the newspaper headline) so i donated this amt which i am comfortable with. Actually, I just feel very sorry for the people of Japan and the state of destruction they have to witness and go through and live with. We are truly very fortunate not having to go through such disasters.. Really, 平安就是幸福..

And when you think about all the problems we face in our daily life, work stress, relationship problems, money problems etc, they all pale and seem so minute against the life and death disasters this nation has to go through.


I hope everyone can live in a peaceful world.

My 小红

A colleague commented recently that it's time i switch to a new car. " Buy a bigger nicer car.. and no red color..." he offered his well intended advice. "Thanks for the advice, but no thanks..", i countered.

I think my little red car has served me well for the past 5-6 years. It's really 麻雀虽小, 五脏俱全. For me, the purpose of a car is to transport me from point A to point B. I don't need help from the size and make of a car to tell the world how successful i am (not to mean that i am so successful though) or feed my ego further. Nor am i someone who is passionate about cars and will appreciate all the outstanding performance etc of a good car. My colleagues occasional lunch-time conversations on cars does still confuses me! haha!

But i love my 小红. It went through many ups and downs with me. It was an impromptu purchase..but nevertheless a purchase i have never regretted. It accompanied me through the period when i just returned Singapore from Europe, trying to start my life afresh, trying to move on with my life, healing a broken heart while having to smile hard at the world and pretended that i was happy.

It was a transition from times in the past when i was without car and enjoyed privileges of  ex or friends with cars coming to fetch me to a time of empowerment. Of being independent, and free and alone..

It was with me during the few occasions when despite myself, the tears would drop as i drove myself home and i  was grateful that no one was around...just me in my little red car. Times when i just sat with myself inside the car, not knowing where to go. It was there during times when i was dating hard (or trying to date hard), thinking that that was the best way to stop loving someone...

It was there too during the numerous happy times when i engaged in happy activities with my friends. Happy drives chatting with friends and driving towards activities i enjoyed that keep my life active and fulfilled. Funny adventures and mishaps i encountered, and the many traffic offences and stories i made along the way too. It was there too, at times when i suddenly have some bright enlightened thoughts while i was on the wheels. :)

These past few years had been a healing, growing and transformative period for me. I feel wiser, more contented and generally happier... and my 小红 had been there through it all, like a loyal steadfast friend..

Quote to Remind Myself

Came across this quote from Marilyn Monroe while searching for something else. I think this is a good reminder to me so i shall give it the honor of appearance here. :)

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
— Marilyn Monroe